skinnyshortcake

2010-10-31T18:11:00.001+08:00

HELLO BOYS & GIRLS.

I'VE MOVED TO

http://skinnyshortcake.tumblr.com/

xoxo

2010-10-25T01:43:00.002+08:00

The clock struck twelve, im officially twentytwo.

To some, im a little old lady now, to others im just a little girl still.

But i know myself best.

Im a baby trying to grow up fast.

& sometimes i try so hard i miss out on the little precious things along the way, only to regret & try to trace back my steps.

someone told me today "think of how and what your going to do for the next one year, so the next year this day, on your birthday, when you look back again, you'll see yourself as a much better person and achieving or getting closer to your goals."

i do have goals i wna achieve by next year of today, for the better or worse i do not know, but i do know something or perhaps everything about me would be different from now till when that day slowly arrives.

i dont believe in ever being contented with myself & be satisfied with whatever we have cos we should always be improving & im still trying to find a space im comfortable in.

& i just hope twenty two years of my life would eventually teach me to be more realistic & not to live in dramas & dreams. & to open my eyes wide and make the right choices in people.

i hope my friends are reading this as well & do e same for yourself.

happy birthday to me. xoxo

2010-10-12T00:21:00.002+08:00

each time i think im over you, reality will slap me real hard.

the feeling of knowing nothing has ever changed & you

still could hurt me the way you did.. it makes me feel real

shitty. After so long, have i not learn to face the truth?

Must i let a man affect my life, making me change myself

bit by bit just so i could be the one i think he deemed perfect.

im so screwed up.

its lousy to feel weak for something that's not working out.

2010-10-04T00:34:00.004+08:00

i was deciding whether to give up my last available hours before bed on my blog, or on sex & the city & so, here i am.

i think most of my friends knows how obsessed i am with american film series & its scaring me to the point that i dont really enjoy outings that much anymore cos i rather be home on bed watching my shows. its not about the couch potato thing, but rather im so envious of the make-believe life i feel myself wanting to have it so much im running away from reality & thinking their world is real.

i wonder if theres an illness for that?

it sounds rather silly now tt i've typed it out, but e feeling of wanting to escape from reality so much isnt exactly a joke.

I've been looking for english cafes with victorian sofas and cozy settings which of cos, i found quite a few with e help of my sis whose also a lover of such. one sunny afternoon, along with my book, i spent a good few hours alone in one of these cafe, sipping on a hot tea & munching on grilled mushrooms. It really felt DAMN good but alot of people just dont get it, moments spent alone can be alot more enjoyable then hanging out in a group.

Its Undisturbed Precious Moments.

& then, when i was there, i was just thinking..when am i gna find a guy who share the same thoughts as me. i dont know how i always give out the wrong vibes. I used to party alot but im not exactly what you would call a Party girl or someone whose just looking for fun? im not into some gorgeous guy who would bring me to parties after parties, im looking for someone who would walk with me on the beach, chill with me at cafes, read books together & just enjoy each other company. it seems easy to find someone like this..but is it?

& just so you know. i've given up on partying. i spend my weekends just chillin with my friends, tapas, wine and good company. seriously hope i would find someone on the same stand as me. its annoying, but i wont get attached till i find that impossible one. bah. which also means i probably be standing alone for a long long time.

its even more annoying how i've typed so much and wasted precious time i could ve spent on my films. even even more annoying that i've typed so much & i bet alot of you still ve no idea how i feel.

SIGH. it gets really exasperating sometimes.

"I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming,

can't-live-without-each-other love." - Carrie Bradshaw

some snaps from the past few weeks.

The crazy four fools at Highlanders.

& after i said so much.. actually, very fankly..i know im not ready for a new relationship. yup, even after two years. im just irritated at the fact that everyone else seems to be able find their other half so easily...or at least they think is their other half.. everyone except me!! WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WRONG WITH ME?

i should be a nun!

2010-09-24T00:32:00.002+08:00

" I've been giving up on people too easily. If they dont call, if they dont try..then i dont.

Its not fair to lay the blame on them when i'm not calling either. I'm just as much at fault.

I've got a lot of resentment for old friends...for letting me go without a fight.

I just want someone to call and say "i miss you, how are you?" i just wish to call someone

and say " i miss you, i'm sorry." i want to be brave enough to stay in one place."

"Sometimes when life goes downhill and things get crazy, it freaks us out a little and makes us feel like we’re losing grip on something that’s really important - a part of ourselves, our lives and that scares us even more, so we try really hard to hold on tight to whatever we think we’re losing and sometimes, we hold on a little too hard."

2010-09-20T01:00:00.002+08:00

My Childhood friend.

i've read this message from you only about a hundred times. never fail to make me smile. dont kill me for posting this up, cos i really wna share this sweetness with everyone. (:

this is what she sent me one fine day...

"Hello childhood friend, it's been a good, long fifteen years we've known each other. You asked if i believe fate plays a huge part in our lives, i do. We have been classmates since age 7 all the way to 15. Then our classes were side by side till we graduated and went in different schools, i was thinking that's where our destiny ceased. But a year later you enrolled into nafa and then i'm convinced we were meant to be friends for life. :D

Whenever i'm attached i tend to drift away and i feel bad about it, constantly. But L was in army and an hour, minute and sec were priceless to us. Now that i've made one of the toughest decision and am still confused/shaken over it, i'm so glad i have you by my side. You weren't one of those who told me i was strong and left me to bleed. You were one who encouraged me, who asked me out every week so i would take my mind off things.

Remember the time you left jy & i left j we both did alot of crazy shit. We went to thai pubs, gays pubs and when we're at clubs we would never leave till everyone left? Thinking back, you were also there more than anyone else did.

Well, i just wna say you were the friend i never was. I truly appreciate your love, effort, concern and time. You are one of my closest, closest friend and i would never do anything to jeopardize our friendship. I know you yourself have been going through some rough period and if you need me, i'd definitely be here. You don't have to fret and think you'll be my burden or that you're alone. Because you have me. I will be there this time onwards, trust me. ♡ "

(: i trust you.

& that night, she told me about this friend who waited for this girl for six years and finally won her heart over which gave me alot to think about. Maybe it just takes some people a little longer to realise the right one has always been beside him...if i truly love someone, whats wrong with waiting for him instead of running away all the time so i wont hurt myself any further.

Love is a risk worth taking isnt it?

2010-09-15T12:59:00.002+08:00

i miss you so much i would go anywhere just to have one more look of you.
i really regret giving up on you when i knew so well your worth every minute waiting for.

i wish i can erase whatever happened tt day and start afresh with you again.
i was such a fool & now your gone...

the worse feeling is seeing that yr gone but still leavin traces everywhere so i would feel awful everytime.

2010-09-10T16:15:00.003+08:00

"There’s a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it’s not giving up. It’s realizing that you don’t need certain people and their crap."

"I needed to know that I meant something, anything to you. But what I got was nothing. Absolutely nothing. And it’s funny the things you realize when someone walks away. At first, you feel as though it’s your fault. Feeling empty, and so close to falling apart. And then in time, you come to the realization that you did nothing wrong. That it’s his loss, that you are so much better without that one person who didn’t ever care. You live and you’ll learn, that’s how it is."

(tumblr)

i miss the old me so much.

my long hair, e much skinnier me...& all the memories tt comes along. even if i could have all tt back, it wouldnt even b e same.

2010-09-06T10:46:00.002+08:00

so you are attracted to girls who smokes & only about a thousand people saw her half nude bod.

Yep. no wonder i couldnt get your attention & you just wouldnt get attracted to me.

not in a million years, now i know.

2010-09-05T19:19:00.003+08:00

so im back again, looking to fill the dead space. im thinking of shutting down & switching to Tumblr just so i can repost all the emo sad side of me. well actually, i dont have a sad side. im a perpetually happy person & i dont allow myself to breakdown...for long anyway.

feels like i train myself with a cane, i train myself to be stronger, to always pick myself up & carry on cos i feel that those who gives up are only pathetic. dont you think that there's more to life than brooding over your own misery?

shit. im definitely getting too far from what i intend to blog about today. but what did i even want to say in the first place?

i should be contented with everything i have now, its not all smooth sailing but theres definitely ALOT of things for me to wake up everyday with a huge smile. but yet i feel myself frowning more & more and theres just that emptiness inside. its like i have it all yet..none at all?

sigh. this entry is just contradicting, no?

Anyway. i stopped loving myself so i dont really take pictures anymore except of certain places i've been to.

new hideout: Chip Bee Gardens, Holland V.

went to a Nixon event at Old School recently, with pretty interesting art works displayed. regretted nt snapping down some visuals, was too busy sipping on my drink & gettin amazed at e details.

i hope i ve some BIG news to share soon. Maybe.

anything else, just chill. (:

2010-08-15T02:55:00.003+08:00

found these skype photos from mokkie's webcam in my lappy. taken like ages ago luh. :D

yup. im always super happy & crazy on skype, esp when im comfy on bed!

2010-08-09T02:20:00.001+08:00

e reason why you would see me at timbre for.
i love dem x a million. Goodfellas are indeed Good. (:

2010-08-08T14:56:00.003+08:00

Miserable long wkends. Im having cough fits now, always coughing till i feel like vomiting or till i cry. ): it can last for weeks & best thing is.. this is the third month in a row im having it. its killing me cos i always wake up in e middle of the night to cough & its killing my social life. sigh.

just last friday i went to meet a client & i ran out on him without saying anything cos i was coughing so badly & i came back with my eyes & nose all red like i cried a whole deal. so embarrassing! ):

Anw, me & tweety tried out at this really REALLY really nice place at Mandarin Gallery which my sis wants me to keep e name a secret. hahaha. it serves really delicious all day breakfast from all over e world & the place's all cozy, new yorker feel. :D

when im better, im so gna go back to taste their wine!

my English breakfast.

tweety's I♥newyork.

& WE WATCHED PHUA CHU KANG MOVIE AFTER THAT.

I KNOW, SUCHA EMBARRASSMENT!

it was a total waste of our ten bucks! okay for a channel 5 show, LAME for a big screen.

i just thought it would b interesting to see what dey can come out with for e movie. ):

shall end here. got to shower cos im gg to HOLLAND V. :D another place i love to chill at.

2010-07-31T14:27:00.008+08:00

i've finally found some time in e afternoon to update this pretty much dead blog. i dont even know why i bother to update it anymore, but i just feel like i've to! it will prob be deleted sometime later, along with my facebook if i bear to. I just feel like disconnecting with e world which i am already halfway there.

ANW. before my blog becomes extinct, heres a visual flooded post.

YAHLAH. i know some of the pictures are extremely tiny, its nt like theres a need to scan through each & every pictures anw. if your feeling hardworking, just click to enlarge.

@ calvin's bdae bash somewhere in faraway land.

baby's bdae @ town, TONKICHI.

i had to post this up for tweety's benefit.

ordered Ferrero Rocher bouquet for baby, annoyed cos it was supposed to come in White & Gold. like wth? it came in PINK & GREEN & WHATEVER.

@ jook

dad's 60th party at home.

"its a family affair"

hosted by me & my two sisters.

anything's worth it for daddy's smile. :D

2010-07-31T04:12:00.002+08:00

i spent like two hours figuring out my blog probs & FINALLY its DONE! reading the html codes like a thousand times really helps. hopefully NO ONE would ve any annoying probs with my navi & entries anymore. :D

its 4am, im horribly tired & i need to sleep. goodnight people. (:

2010-07-21T23:39:00.001+08:00

shucks. kay, i know i need to change my blogskin soon, too much people are complaining about how my blogskin doesnt work on their server and the sidebar is interrupting my entries or smth. GAH. but im so lazyyyy. jus a blogskin takes HOURS. ):

poooo. ve' so much on my To-Do list & work is taking too much of my time. Though im kinda used to working late everyday but then.. I'VE NO FREETIME TO MYSELF AT ALL. & ever since work started, almost every week theres like some event, I'VE NO IDEA WHY. i totally ve' no time to just stay at home & do my own stuffs. ):

kay, off to watching my korean drama & then to beddie. goodnight people.

ps: cant wait for sunday, me & sis are holding this kickin' big party at home for my dad 60th. Theres gna b lots of wine, aunties & uncles, awesome international buffet & & this Durian cake from Goodwood Hotel, heard their durian cakes are super good! hopefully everything will go smoothly! i haven even order the flowers...gahhh..so much to tend to!

psps: advance theory next week!! i've to pass it or bbq after that would b so miserable!

2010-07-11T23:05:00.007+08:00

elo elo. mannn i took sucha long time to get into the world cup fever this yr & how i regret it. i would ve love to spend my saturdays drinkin & screamin football but tnight's like e LAST match. i cant even go out & join in the fun with all the fans cos i've work tml. ):

i threw away four ticks to NDP saturday cos i was too exhausted from zouk e night before. ): & I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR YEARS for the ticks. whatthehell was i thinking? boo.. my saturday was spent WELL though. dinner with family at JING - One Fullerton & then to Marina Bay Sands Hotel, Timbre with cal, tweety, miss p & her bren, lastly to Winebar for GERMANYYYYY's MATCH. WOOHOO!

im impressed by my dad's photography skills, i must say..he love blur shots. ): oh, doesnt the view looks lovely?

View from 56th flr.
The infinity pool which is larger than an olympic pool.

up up up to the room.
The weekends were so good compared to the horrible ones recently which are still disgustingly messing up my mind. Friday was spent celebrating my gf's twentyfirst which i shall blog abt when i get the pictures so DONT GET UPSET nt seeing yr name in this entry.

& of cos, one fine saturday decades ago spent with jul & sean. (:

got for sweetie this tiny little lollipop cake which she cant even finish! what small appetite!

my favourite chillout in the night.

say hello to my lover here. :D

love you sweetie. i promised you Ice Skating next, wont forget. :) ♥

alright, gna wait for e match to start. toodles! btw..im rooting for Holland no matter how many people around me are rooting for spain. GOOOO HOLLAND!!!

2010-07-05T21:52:00.002+08:00

I lose half day pay tdy. why? cos menses caused me to faint for the third time, & this time in the

office. SO NOT AMUSING. i was dyin in e office & my bosses had to send me home. ): please please please dont happen again next month, i feel so troublesome & weak.

ANW, i've decided to go for Lasik surgery next year June, why that date, will update again next year. :D hope i wont back out when tt day comes.

Boring. im headin up to my room.

2010-06-29T00:12:00.003+08:00

;& how else am i supposed to say it.

' I cant describe how im feeling right now. ill miss you.

i guess its for the best. But that doesnt mean im not crying

my entire heart out right now.'

I WANT YOU AS MY FRIEND STILL, BUT LOOKING AT

YOU JUST TEARS MY HEART OUT. LOOKING AT YOU

MAKES IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO CONTROL MY TEARS,

MAKES IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO GET OVER YOU.

& SO I HAVE TO TURN AWAY FROM YOU FOR A WHILE.

WHEN IM BRAVER & WHEN I CAN MANAGE WITHOUT

YOU..I HOPE WE CAN CONTINUE THE FRIENDSHIP

WHERE WE LEFT OFF. I HOPE YOU DO STILL THINK

ABOUT ME ONCE A WHILE, EVEN WHEN I DO NOT

PICK UP YOUR CALLS OR DO NOT REPLY YOUR MESSAGES,

PLEASE DO STILL THINK OF ME.

& REALLY. THERES SO MANY TIMES I WNA LET YOU KNOW

HOW I FEEL, BUT HOW COULD I RISK MY FRIENDSHIP

WITH YOU WHEN THAT COULD BE THE ONLY CLOSEST

WAY I COULD STAY NEXT TO YOU.

2010-06-22T23:48:00.003+08:00

“When one door closes another door opens;

but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door,

that we do not see the ones which open for us.”

cos i haven blog for so long, im just throwing in a post & a picture

to let you all know - IM STILL ALIVE. im not gna talk about work

again cos i knw how sickening it is to hear me whine & whine abt

work & thrs nth fun to read abt work anyway. oh..but you know what?

IM A WORKING WOMEN

& thats what a women who works from 10am to 9pm everyday should

talk about, cos our life only comes twice a week & other than that, we

are bloody workaholics. YES! Thank you.

look, work isnt easy & i wont say any is. even doin data base in an office

8hours per day is tough cos you think sitting thr typing boring datas the

whole day is nt a chore? the most i can do after each day is whine a little,

and e next day i wake up, i've to go thru e whole routine once again. just

hope i wont make any silly mistakes & one more good project would

b added to my portfolio so i can progress to somewhere better next time.

im not a quitter, im just braining for strategies to allow me to survive

the design battle. All i want is to get home earlier everyday to have

dinner with daddy. they can torture me however they want during work

hours. (:

& oh wow, i typed alot.

now, the pros about working. It keeps me very very busy which i LOVE

cos doin nothing is DISGUSTING. everyday from monday to sunday i am

packed with a full To-Do-List. I am never bored which i never was anyway.

heh. & ive lots of bdae events, whatever coming up. thanks all the mothers

who chooses to give birth this few mths anyway.

ALRIGHT. I SHALL LEAVE THIS PAGE NOW. AS USUAL, LOTS OF

PICTURES SWIMMING AROUND MY LAPPY WAITING TO BE POSTED.

ps: I KNOW YOU WILL B SEEING THIS - mister neighbor, my walking

encyclopedia. thanks for every wise things you said to me, you know i'll

always listen to you cos i know its all true. talking to you've really made

me feel better. (: & i will keep my promise.

2010-06-15T00:46:00.002+08:00

when im with you, i'll make every second count.

'cos i miss you whenever you are not around.

;Busylikeabee.

super busy cos of work, every night by the time i get off from

work, its like so late. i only ve that little time for dinner and

family time before i get tired & need to hit the sack for morning.

wo bu yao become those people who have no social life, dont

know whats happening around them, by e time dey get out of

their own working shell, dey cant catch up anymore. & then

soon i will look haggard, carrying a belly around, wearing long

mini skirts, with messy ponytails and court shoes.

NOOOOOO. well actually, im leading a rather healthier life now,

i do some exercise on the bike almost regularly, im sleeping earlier,

im eating no more than 3 meals per day which SHOULD b tt way,

and no more suppers! yayyyy! i hope i become slimmer in a month

or two. which for some reason, im very determined now. (:

oopsie. x( very late already. i haven choose my outfit for tmr, gotto

choose a pretty pretty dress cos its my sista bdae celebration. HEE.

bdae bdae bdae...reminds me of JJ tan. IM GNA MEET YOU SOON.

wait for me

low yu xuan & liyana oreth

just calling your name for fun. :D

2010-06-10T00:25:00.002+08:00

How can you forget the person you really love before

if even a single blank message makes you fall in love

once more?

i feel like its the Back To School days. trying to sleep earlier, waking

up superbly early, finding the right clothes to wear e night before, surviving

the whole day with no sleep the night before, gettin home exhausted like hell.

): so scary, i wonder how it b like at work tomorrow. This is like no internship,

no part time job, no holiday job, its a PERMANENT JOB i've to stay for at least

a year at. what if the environment dont suit me? what if i hate the job? omg.

k, nw im scaring myself for real.

mmmm. okay, im gna try to count ★s to sleep. goodnight boys & girls.

xoxo

2010-06-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

;LAUGHSOUTLOUD

@ this picture. my head looks double of its size. :D

anewaeeee. me have just signed a contract with a design company.

i am OFFICIALLY a Graphic Designer. yayyyy~ after stressing for

so super long over thinking i've chosen the wrong company, i've

again decided..my choice is right afterall. TEEHEE. so, i may be

startin work a lil earlier than i thought which is kinda upsetting

cos i was really looking forward to makin use of whatever freedom

i still ve..but.. OH WELL. i dont think i would detest work that much.

and tweety oh tweety, seems like i would be beside you and b watching

you go through yr whole 3 yrs of nafa since my workplace is just beside.

YAYOHYAY

I've got no good use for my camera now cos im so lazy to take pictures,

so lazy to edit, so lazy to upload. -.- if only i ve e money to hire a full

time photographer to help me snap every events of my life. ):

im off to waste time & enjoy Cougar Town, my newest addict.

ps: TO MY BUDDY JAKENAMJIEWEN. I HOPE ARMY'S VE

BEEN & AM GNA TREAT YOU RIGHT. IF THEY BULLY YOU

IM SORRY BUT I CANT BULLY EM BACK FOR YOU BUT YOU

KNW THAT IM ALWAYS WAITING ON THE LINE TO HEAR

YR GAY-EST COMPLAINS & IM SUCHA DAM GOOD LISTENER.

IMISSYOU & ILOVEYOU & I WOULD BUY CANDIES FOR YOU

WHEN I GET TO SEE YOU TO SWEETEN YOUR LIFE. ♥

2010-06-04T15:48:00.003+08:00

; i ♥ skype

just a random skype with mokkie. :D

explains why im never against long distance relationship,

cos im never the sticky type and with skype around, i feel

as if the person is right there with me. (:

modern technology is just so amazing.

ANYWAY, I FINALLY GET TO WATCH SEX&THECITY 2,

JUST AS EXPECTED, THE MOVIE IS FANTASTIC. THE

FAHION IS NOTHING LESS THAN AWE, THE WOMEN

ARE GORGEOUS, THE MEN ARE CHARMING. AND E

ONLY REASON WHY IM USING CAPS IS CAUSE I WANA

MAKE SURE YOUR READING THIS. HAHAHAHAHAHA

& of cause, wednesday was spent wisely with the ladies &

three men. Supperclub, Zouk and then chilling at Keiron's.

all tt partying and pouring down of Peach Martinis, Jagerbombs,

Apple Shooters, Seven Dwarfs, Graveyard and whats not makes

today a self-declare resting day. im gna kick back & relax, clear

my room, get rid of all the sickening school stuffs and do some

exercise to get rid of the toxic. yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

& btw, after a long decision on deciding which company i would

work in, i finally made up my mind and i hope its the right decision.

i would be starting work as a Graphic Designer on 15 June so till

then, I MUST HAVE ALL THE FUN IN THE WORLD. WEEEEEE!

xoxo

2010-05-28T03:29:00.003+08:00

2010-05-27T23:57:00.002+08:00

I know i may be just one of them amongst

the millions and trillions. I know I may not

be significant enough to stand out.

But i'm not giving up on that hope.

That little tiny hope that someday, you'll

realise that it's been me all along.

im heading to kl in seven hours, not planning to sleep cos...

i dont find a good reason to. initially, i wanted to go out and

have fun till wee hours to pass my time but i dont know what

happened to that idea and im counting on Big Bang Theory to

kill time.

im kinda annoyed with myself cos i wanted to get a few things

for KL tomorrow but i totally forgot? a swimsuit from river island,

a googles that wont hurt my lashes, a sunglass..just for decorative

purposes and a new blusher! ): now i've nothing new and exciting

to bring over and im feelin pretty grumpy about it. SIGH.

hopefully i would b able to work soon cos doin nothing everyday

feels utterly useless and so meaningless. I HATE IT. and work

means money to pay off my credit card bills. >.<

alright. see you guys after the weekends.

xoxo

2010-05-25T23:30:00.002+08:00

;hi

i've got lots of photos waiting to be edited & unloaded but me now

being so free, i shall be lazy and only choose to do them when im very

busy. :D i work better under pressure! hehe

did i say that IM DONE WITH SCHOOL? i cant even remember the

things i blog anymore & i cant be bothered to check back. sooo, i've

friends gg on holidays, taking a break, slacking away and me? as usual,

i like keeping myself busy so i went job searching & i should be working

pretty soon. (: though design is a shit paying job and i've no idea why im

still sticking with it? but i am anyway. TEEHEE.

im heading to KL on the long weekends, i think thats the only holiday i

would get once im working. yup, so sad but true. im gna pack all my pretty

clothes over & have a glamourous nice weekend at malaysiaaaa!

oh, just bein random. Im onto Big Bang Theory now. & being random again,

do anyone know where i can watch season 5 last eps of How I Met Your

Mother? i cant get it anywhere & its killing me. ):

tts all. xoxo

2010-05-23T01:49:00.002+08:00

;dailysigh

im so bloody confuse about my career path.

the only thing im so sure about is that if i could

turn back time, i wouldnt choose this route. i

wouldnt have got into design. i should've been

more practical but i was only so young, could

you blame me for making wrong decisions?

i always thought design was my thing, but now

i can guarantee its not. & what am i suppose to

do? start from scratch again or just stick to it,

do shit works everyday and bring home an indecent

pay? im considering my options but thrs like none?

fuck. what am i gna do now? i've been stressing about

this since like forever. i rly wish to b at NZ now takin

a big break by e sea instead. ): boohoohoohoohooboo.

2010-05-19T17:03:00.008+08:00

; yes, im still standing strong

when the world comes crushing on me, when everyone's

going against me, when nothing seems to be going the

right way, when there's nothing to look forward for, the

most coward easiest way out always come running through

my mind.

But at the end of the day, i would tell myself, this is how life's

supposed to be. it wouldnt be smooth sailing & now im facing

my downs, soon i would be enjoying life like never before again.

yes, im small. but its not so easy to break me down.

i would only strive harder for success!

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Steamboat & The Last Song with gf, mitchell & chelsea.

Last Song was pretty good though e story line's pretty

typical. Us girls were tearing up in the theatre. hahaha.

oh, but i hate miley cyrus. SHES DAMN ANNOYING!

it was an awesome day out. cant wait for out next blading date!

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Timsums @ CHIJMES - Lei Garden

my sisters. (:

crispy sau rou, their speciality.

soupee, another speciality.

super yummy egg tarts.

mango pudding.

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AppleBees with miss p, gf and tweety. Have been wanting

to try out their food for so damn long!

The food's not too bad. (:

yup, all blur shots.

my ribeye with grilled shrimps.

gf's

miss p's salad.

tweety's porkribs.

Timbre with tweety and miss p after that!

:D i had a good time with dem all. Timbre was so

damn funny cos me and miss p were fighting over

the vocalist and they misinterpreted miss p's love note.

in the end, it was one bloody embarrassment! :o

▲▲▲▲

okay, INEEDFOODNOW.

xoxo

2010-05-16T04:31:00.003+08:00

;a not so happy post.

4.31am ends with a very huge fullstop.

the end of a very foolish infatuation.

yes, i woke up from my big fat dream.

good thing abt me, i never like to drag hopeless situation

like a sick dog. i allow myself to get upset, get over things &

live life again. im always keeping myself so busy anyway, the

amount of time i be free to get depress is only a small

fraction of the time i be so busy i cant even think shit. SO,

you be good, ng hui hui, dont let it break you down too much. (:

i shall go back to putting my priority on school/work.

& you? till we meet again honey.

anw, i left only two more eps of How I Met Your Mother. DAMN

IT, not another thing ending on me. ): have got to find smth else

to watch again. SIGH. & i shall end e post here cos i've some deleting

to do and till then. goodbye.

ps: cant wait for my double rollerblading date with mr & mrs chen tml.

2010-05-10T03:16:00.004+08:00

; hi

back to the past

zouk on two fridays.

i wonder how long could all this carefree happiness last.

2010-05-06T15:50:00.002+08:00

; its nice

how school can just kill every little happiness left in me. i had

plans all planned out. i wanted to alter my pretty dress today,

i wanted to get materials for my portfolio, i wanted to meet up

with my classmates for celebration tonight. but now i just wana

DIE AT HOME.

kay. not DIE die. just lie on bed like what im doin now, hide

under my blankets and watch himym with loads of chips

crunching to do. dang, that sounds really chill but the fact

that im doin this shows tt i have given up on life... for a day.

kay, so my presentation didnt go THAT bad, but its cos i know

overall, this is prob my worst work ever, yet its my fyp and yet

its gg to b up showcasing to every damn people on grad show.

makes me feel so embarrassed and frkin disappointed in myself.

IS THIS ALL YR CAPABLE OF HUIHUI?

3 years of studying like hell in nafa has taught you to give such

sub-standard works huh. im so frustrated with myself, so much

i wanna cry like a baby but i wont, cos im 22 not 2.

life shall begin from tomorrow.

goodbye.

2010-05-03T16:32:00.002+08:00

; hello

i've just put up FormSpring.me in my sidebar.

In another words, you can ask me or tell me

ANYTHING about ANYTHING anonymously

but please refrain from anything dumber than

dumb cos you know i can just delete it. :D

goodbye.

2010-05-03T14:14:00.003+08:00

; thank you

before i forget, let me thanks all the people who've helped

me with my assessments. Behind the scenes and..before. (:

SUPER huge thanks to Nam Jiewen.

yuxuan . crystal . crystal's friends

. eliza . khai . daddy . wilson . anyi

even though i hate my fyp work cos it sucks big time. I dont

even think it will appear in my portfolio, bt i couldnt've

completed my assessments without you people. (:

let me tell you the full story between me and...

Mr. Mozzie

In November 2009, i went to newzealand & met a new friend there,

specifically speaking, a friend of Mr. Mozzie, Mrs sandy fly. It was hate

at first sight. She brought her family, friends, neighbours, strangers over

for dinner, they bit me dry, suck my blood like greedy pigs. It was fine,

i forgive her, im not so petty though she hurt me and left scars on my

body. BUT what do i know, that bitch poisoned me.

she made sure i would never forget about her, even when im back at

home. Months later, when her friends visited me back at home, namely

Mr. Mozzie, i realised his bites are as horrible as hers. EVERY bite would

swell up and though i didnt even give in to the temptations to scratch it,

it would still turn into ugly scars. So after i find my legs looking more &

more like my polka dot dress, i decided to look for a dermatologist.

only to find out that tt bitch poisoned me, leaving her dirty blood in me

and causing me to have a reaction everytime her family, friends & distant

relatives bite me.

In another words, i am currently Allergic to Insects Bites.

i must not get bitten and is warn to avoid gettin bitten at all cases. im

so afraid of mozzies now, im getting paranoid. not to forget my polkadot

legs and pills i've to eat everyday. I HATE YOU MRS SANDY FLY.

▲

& now about something i love.

2010-05-02T03:52:00.002+08:00

; sorry mitchell chen.

urgh. i get a headache everytime i think about last night at zouk.

it was all a big blur. im too tired to talk abt it nw, i just wana say

sorry to those i abandoned & its becoming such a usual practice

everytime i party and have overdose of alcohol. This Must Stop.

▲

Anewae, i found the perfect place i wanna get married at. :D Its

really e most perfect place ever, along with my perfect song. Im

just short of e perfect groom. hahaha, i sound like one of those

desperate girls dying to get married. The truth is, i do wanna get

married as soon as i find e right one. the thought of waiting for

him to come home to me everyday after work is just so blissful!

okay. back to the place im talking about. if im going to have it

there, the next guy i b with has got to have some extra mooneh

man. cos its aint gona b cheap for sure. omg..why am i even talkin

about marriage and stuffs, i must be still tipsy from last night.

okay. STOP.

▲▲

photos taken when me & anyi had our unsuccessful attempt to

take photos for my fyp at botanic garden. i really appreciate you

running around with me the whole afternoon, you carrying so

many stuffs and yet you did nt even complain plus it was a bloody

wasted trip though Barcelos chicken was awesome. seriously,

THANKYOU. your an awesome friend, for real.

its 4.17 am now. think im gona watch like two eps of himym before

i head to bed. im gna spend the whole of tomorrow finishing things

for my assessment. (: anw, monday i will be handing up my fyp and

thursday would be the big day where i've to present my works to my

lecturers and an external assessor fr JWC. its gna b super nerves

wreaking and i b popping pills for sure. & then..thats the end of my

nafa days apart fr my grad show and convocation.

i am NO longer a STUDENT.

▲▲▲

top on my to-do list:

do portfolio

create portfolio website

2010-04-25T02:36:00.000+08:00

; say hello to e stupidest girl

am i dumb or am i dumb?

2010-04-24T15:07:00.002+08:00

; dd says

when i get my license, i can get...

THIS.

everyone shout with me "OMGGGGG"

tts like my dream car, only im far away from my dream cos i stopped aft

basic theory. ): i want to continue taking but aft i start working i've no much

time for lessons. HOWWWWW!?!

im ending school in a week time.

feel so pressurized, im taking a turn into my next chapter of life

and i've no idea how is it going to b like. i hope i wont spend the

next few months like a couch potato at home. i like to feel useful.

gettin back to my work which fyi, has suddenly come to alot of trouble

cos of a certain person and is givin me lots of stress. i miss havin fun.

tata.

xoxo

2010-04-18T16:56:00.002+08:00

; mrs woozy

im currently feeling woozy dizzy from my cough syrup, which btw,

im finishing the whole bott soon. using that as an excuse to not do any work.

i've got a confession.

i told everyone i was busy doin work yesterday, I LIED.

i was actually playin dead on the sofa the whole day aft i got

home from shooting for projs and looking at cute people in town.

im so disappointed in myself. im supposed to spend every minute

every second on my work..which questions..WHY AM I BLOGGIN NOW!

oh crap.

eyyy, the medi is doin some real stuffs to my head, i really cant think

properly. i need to...

2010-04-13T02:57:00.002+08:00

;junkmail

i was almost tempted to reply him back with the correct spellings,

DONT THIS PEOPLE EVER DOUBLE CHECK THEIR MESSAGES?

tsk tsk.

2010-04-12T02:40:00.002+08:00

; stunning limo

imagine if i could hold a party here on my birthday.

2010-04-11T20:20:00.003+08:00

; wellowyellowhello

IM SO LAZY. i spent friday & saturday partyin, slept at 8am yesterday

talking to my sisters, got up at around 5pm today and too lethargic to

do any work. Instead, i spent my wonderful sunday spraying insecticide

and inspecting everywhere for mozzies cos i've been bitten like hell

& i swear my leggys looks like i've been infected with disease.

EFFING SCARY.

i wonder what's for dinner tonight, daddy's at Desaru now, havin

goodtimes without his daughters. boohoo

▲

ANW, thursday at Empire State with crazy Jt and calvin.

i dont think i will ever step in there again cos e foodie aint any good. =x

or maybe its just Jt constant coughings and NONSTOP madness bothering me much.

but i still love youuuuu! :D

▲▲

; Butter is better than margarine

finally get to meet up with my three long lost friends, one whose not

in any of the pictures cos he left like 20mins after i came? -.-

it felt good to see dem all and not to forget the sexy lady

flaunting her g string at everyone in da club. WOO.

▲▲▲

okay, i've got to force myself to do some work. :D

ps: please get well NOW my dear gf and liy baby, stop disappearing off

from school for camps. i will hate you two if i have to go sch alone again.

psps: i want to meet everyone and i mean EVERYONE i havent met in

a long timeee, new friends come doesnt mean old friends gone kay.

that especially goes out to my childhood friends, you know who you r! :D

2010-04-08T03:26:00.002+08:00

" I know Im prayin for much too much

But could You send back the only women he loved

I know You dont do it usually

But Lord, he's dyin to dance with my mother again

Every night I fall asleep

And this is all I ever dream"

its 3.35am now, obviously im still wide awake. i've class tomorrow

at 9am but im not worried about not bein able to wake up, cos im so

used to sleeping in e morning and going to school feelin tired but still

good enough to drive my friends crazy. :D im nocturnal.

Once upon a time,

something happened to me,

it was the sweetest thing,

that ever could be, it was a fantasy,

a dream come true,

it was the day i met you.

2010-04-07T03:17:00.002+08:00

; :D :D :D

i really love that smiley face. heh.

done with my work for e day, was tryin to finish up my thurs assignment

so i can enjoy my romantic candlelight streamboat with Jt tomorrow. haa.

i can feel my mac startin to act crazy, got to transfer everything to my hardisk

soon or you wont hear from me for a long time. ):

▲

SO, goodfriday.

what a turn of events! it ended with me, gf and Jt meeting for sushi, Jt

left for powerhouse and got dead drunk, me and gf chilled with Nic

outside butter till he went in, we bought wine and fooled around at Skape

till 2am, watched Clash Of The Titans & then homey.

not to forget Jt gettin two BB Bold2 within a few hours cos her mum

lost the first set about an hour aft they gotten it? HOLY CRAP.

but overall, what a good friday it was! (:

▲▲

okay. to b fair, i was half drunk when we watched the movie,

BUT i swear i reallyy dont think the movie's good, plus there were

people complaining abt e show when it ended as well..so... ):

▲▲▲

THECRAZYTIPSY

its kinda weird that i always upload all my pictures to Fb &

than blog e exact same pictures up here again. But i guess

its just for e benefit for those who cant b bothered with fb..

like my buddy? haaa.

▲▲▲▲

alright. tts all for today, im gonna read chapter 3 of my bedtime story

JiaJun wrote for me on Whatsapp and then turn in.

goodnight little boys & girls.

xoxo

2010-04-01T20:11:00.003+08:00

; yea, you guys get the idea.

hello you.

will you?

SO, its the eve of goody friday. here i am, feelin all sick, afraid to go out

in case my condition gets worse, or if i faint outside. I MUST get all alive

and kicking tomorrow, I AM NOT GONNA STAY HOME ON A FRIDAY

NIGHT, its supposed to be TGIF! and this goes out to my girlfriend too.

eyy you babygirl, stop all the campfires and hungry hungry, very hungry,

hungry very, I TELL YOU. we'r supposed to have depressed sessions

whenever we have surprise no classes day the next day YO! x(

& SO, im waiting for buddy to come over now, i accompanied him

at the hospital e whole day so now im sick, ITS YOUR TURN.

HAHAHA.

the earth goes round & round, round & round.

okay, i've no idea hows my long wkends gonna be like, but im sure

gonna make it a FAN-tastical one. :D

i wont be able to see you today, tomorrow, tomorrow tomorrow,

tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow, tomorrowtomorrow tomorrow

tomorrow...& you get it.

i hope your as disappointed as i am.

TAH TAH PEOPLE. have an awesome easter wkend &

I'LL BE BACK.

2010-03-30T16:19:00.002+08:00

; ya, hello.

i've no idea what to blog about but all i know is that i wanna fill this space

up. (: im listening to all the house party mixes now, obviously im in the

mood for party, but NONO, i've to go on a healthy break..for..a week prob? x)

alcohol and party music is an addiction.

acid bar to zouk //

& of cos, it was another great night! there was a period of time partyin've

gotten sick boring, but now its just one swell night after another! :D

thanks to all my lovely friends and

my favourite but one and only gf. heh.

& im SUPER sorry to miss p. coughs* coughs* this is a public apology.

should've been more sensitive to you hoohoo.

I LOVE YOU ALL MY NEW, OLD, PRETTY, HANDSOME, UGLY FRIENDS.

xoxo

2010-03-23T00:56:00.003+08:00

; chilling

assessment's tomorrow, i've prepared all my stuffs and im just chilling ard.

idk, presentations used to scare me like shit, i would just sit on my bed

and go thru my speech over & over again, not to forget trembling real hard!

but now i cant even b bothered to type out a speech, i shall just go with

e flow and i guess, to a certain extent, thats better and more natural? hee.

i shall just wait till 5mins before presentation to b scared out of my wits

and tremble like crazy. :D

me and my best companion every night. (:

some day, some month, somewhere

me cant wait for tomorrow night and friday.

yipeeee~

life's good with awesome companions.

ps: i love hanging out with daddy. cos his so childish,

he makes me laugh like crazy!

psps: sentosa's like a dream come true. im like a little excited girl

when im there, all e pretty lights under e beautiful moonlight! :D

like crazy

2010-03-22T01:39:00.002+08:00

; FREE

OH MY GOD. im done with my works for stage two of fyp. three

series advertisements, one tvc storyboard, one magazine advertisement

and one direct mailer. :D its all doneeee, i wanna jump up & down now!

finally im free for e moment till next stage to par par partae!

▲

anewae. below's e photos from the shoot i had two weeks back with

Vanessa Sng

it didnt go too well cos of e rain & cos i didnt sleep at all and cos i

didnt do shoots for so long, i felt LOST. like totally.

sigh. what a disappointment i was. kay, i look pretty oriental in

the photos and fierce..but hahaha, its something at least. :D

i love my dress at least. muahaha.

& so, i've been missing alot of Friends cos of projs and i wanna

get back to it. till then peeple.

xoxo

2010-03-18T21:46:00.002+08:00

i need to party, i need booze & i need shisha.

im trying to fight the needs, oh so madly.

2010-03-16T16:36:00.002+08:00

on a random note:

i want to go Ikea.

i've been working from my bed everyday now & im proud to say,

my bed is very comfy, with white comforters, white pillows and white bolster.

ANYWAY, i need to get a little white bed table to put my baby edward (mac)

on, cos e one im using now is my sis's.

ps: working from bed is e best thing ever, though it puts you to sleep at times.

2010-03-15T01:30:00.002+08:00

yes, it wasnt anything, it wasnt much.

still, it meant something to me.

sometimes it can be so easy to say you dont matter,

so easy to focus on someone else, but then when it comes

to deleting all the only memories i've of you,

the sweet messages i saved one by one,

I JUST CANT DO IT.

its like saying everything will really be the end from then on,

and there was nothing, nothing at all from the start.

i just wish i could b there with you still, esp now.

how silly of me.

im sucha fool. kay, goodbye.

2010-03-14T22:41:00.004+08:00

; party people on da floor

ollaaa. tomorrow marks the end of my two weeks study break,

can you hearing me weeping already? this two weeks were much

AWESOME shitass good break, though not productive at all.

I ENJOYED MYSELF CRAZY.

not to forget all the drama tt went on, and the broken hearts,

but its okay. the old dont go, the new wont come. i've came to

be very calm about things that shouldnt matter much.

▲

photoboothy shit @ home. me, yu xuan and 'liyana'

▲▲

;Zouk is home

spent my friday and saturday @ zouk.

the music was good, the company was good, the crowd was good.

yipee yii yii. screw the part tt i fainted & puke aft leavin the club,

EVERYTHING WAS SO GOOD.

i love meeting new people.

& im really gonna cut down on my alcohol intake.

i know its not doing any good to my body & coming home

feelin like shit isnt da best thing gg on. plus when im drunk,

my poor friends had to take care of me and bring me home..

damn it. its all over, i know when's the limit. (:

its eleventwentyseven. im gonna have my dinner. tata!

xoxo

2010-03-12T03:43:00.002+08:00

i was going to blog about happy things with lots of photos today.

but time flew again, & its 3.44am now. twentyfour hours is much too

short, i cant do all the things i want to do, even though i probably

only use four hours to sleep and the rest of the time are freetime?

so anewae, i just had a long heart to heart talk with mokkie.

that silly boy.

my heart just melted when he told me tt its so natural to fall

for me over and over again, and knowing that he has always cared and

love me like no others had, i always wish i can fall for him the same way

he does for me.

cos i know he will make me such a happy girl

& that he will treasure me, and give me all the love

he could give. but you know mokkie, i always disappoint

you again and again.

you know the reason why i just cant find myself falling for you,

but who knows, when you prove yourself one day, you might

just hear the three words you want me to say to you eventually.

& like you asked me to,

i will try harder.

thanks for always coming back,

even though i could be such a bitch to you MOST of the times.

you would say the sweetest words and i know you mean

everything you said, unlike alot others.

谢谢!

2010-03-12T00:33:00.001+08:00

; fueledbyphotos

squint if u've to.

2010-03-09T00:23:00.003+08:00

; smile. even if you've to force it out.

yuxuan says: (12:17:51 AM)

but dont give up just yet?

whether we wanna do advert in the future is another thing

yuxuan says: (12:18:21 AM)

if we give up now, we're quitters

yuxuan says: (12:18:34 AM)

i dont wanna be a bimbo AND a QUITTER

im not born n raised to be one

we're shallow bimbos but u n i are one hell of a hardworking bimbos

yuxuan says: (12:19:28 AM)

the above sentence doesnt exactly make us feel better, just realised

yuxuan says: (12:19:37 AM)

but ok, we are hard workin

yuxuan says: (12:19:44 AM)

u are hell hard working

yuxuan says: (12:19:49 AM)

i am, when i feel like it

excellent.

for that,

i shall work even extra harder till i throw up my intestines.

2010-03-08T19:21:00.001+08:00

im giving it my last strength

of whatever energy i've left.

then i will give up on advertising forever.

2010-03-08T14:20:00.002+08:00

Dear you,

I don't know how else to speak to you without getting you all flared up.

I'm not siding anyone, you must get tt straight,

I'm also not saying whose right or wrong,

all I'm trying to say is tt,

nothing is tt big of a deal to break a friendship of such tt you guys have.

who cares whose fault is it?

at the end of everything, is tt what counts?

or the times you guys shared,

the good and bad

tt's more important.

if you dont trust anyone,

you should at least trust me,

i dont want you to be hurt,

to regret losing whatever you had.

& im saying you COULD make things better,

trust me on that.

ten years down the road,

would you rather think about a friend you once had,

have tt someone who went thru thick and thin with you,

still by your side all the time.

as much as i love you,

he loves you more.

if you said that i mean so much to you,

you would never delete me off your list,

what about someone who both of you had given so much for,

for each other?

2010-03-06T16:56:00.002+08:00

; laadeeduh

i was very much into blogging a whole load of stuffs today.

but as time passes..

passes...

HOLYCRAP.

imma am very late and needs to bath, prepare & rush out.

SO GOODBYE FOR NOW.

on a side note:

im a happy girl.

promised you i will be happy everyday,

& i will try my very best to keep tt my words.

2010-03-05T01:28:00.004+08:00

"sometimes i wish i were a little kid again,

skinned knees are easier to heal than broken hearts."

"bad as i like ye, it's worse without ye."

"Have you ever been hurt and the place tries to heal a bit,

and you just pull the scar off of it over and over again."

i know you haven't.

cos you prob have not learn to love someone enough to get

hurt over her.

can a thousand smiles,

mask the pain of a broken heart?

2010-03-02T18:41:00.015+08:00

; heh

your welcome.

▲

M's bdae par par partaeee @ powerhouse.

the very drama mama day.

aiyerrrr. my gf's so cute!

must try to cut down on drinking.

tadahhhh!

peektures from e bintan trip.

im having such good time everyday.

very smiles.

till e next.

xoxo

2010-03-01T15:33:00.002+08:00

; you know you have got to stop it

when your not feelin happy anymore.

& you guys should know what i mean when i say

NO MORE

of all tt nonsense.

im sick tired of myself

& em all.

& fuck you fuck you fuck you

all you people who complained my lashes were too long

and drived me to do such short pathetic ones.

I AM NOT HAPPY WITH IT.

I HATE IT.

ARE YOU HAPPY ALREADY?

excuse me?

WHOSE E ONE WHO FORKED OUT MONEY FOR IT.

STOP TELLING ME SHIT I DONT WANNA HEAR.

if you hate my lashes, go look at your own pathetic ones.

GOODBYE.

2010-02-25T19:08:00.004+08:00

FIRST;

VERY MUCH LOVE TO BUDDY.

though you have someone else occupying that mind of yours now,

and you've changed PRETTY MUCH ALOT ever since.

but when i need help,

you will still fork out time for me.

thank you buddy,

you are still e best.

cant b replaced.

ps: esp when you said its okay tt i slept while you were slaving away for me,

cos i really needed a break.

AWW!

▲

& this.

very due pictures from ButterFac tweetyjinty finally decides to upload.

e memorable night i pole danced like crazyy

didnt manage to kill myself

but earned lots of bruises.

IT WAS FUN TIME GREAT TIME THOUGH.

xoxo.

got to meet miss p and miss j soon

so dey can gossip about me and gf

and we can gossip back.

▲▲

tomorrow's e start of my two weeks study break,

IMMA SUPER ELATED.

gonna shisha & party hard.

SAY YAY

LIYANA ORETH AND GIRLFRIEND LOW.

2010-02-24T23:13:00.001+08:00

like & love

A whole different thing.

dont

misread, misjudge, misunderstand.

2010-02-23T16:36:00.002+08:00

i feel like a cheater.

cos whenever people ask me whats up

i'll be telling them i'm doin my projs.

it seems like i'm doin my projs twentyfourseven

which is true

only that twentyfour is wasted on

FACEBOOK

what can i say?

i am a facebook addict.

2010-02-22T17:37:00.006+08:00

; finally

some time to blog.

singles/ pre v-day partae on a friday night.

host by my beloved friend here;

your the reason why i'm there,

you know it.

i could never say sorry enough for not spending time with you tt day,

even though you tell me its good enough tt i'm there.

shit. i just remember you said you dont wanna hear anymore apologies from me.

anewaes.

just know,

i will always b there for you

just like you b here for me too.

mwah.

▲

& so the night goes...

miss p. back to youuuu!

pictures that are not taken by me . credits to livia

thanks gf for bein there with me.

you made e night so much more enjoyable

got more ppl into thinking we are lesbians.

▲▲

last saturday at zouk;

good night seeing e fact tt i havnt partae for some time

and i expected hundred percent awkwardness.

thanks you you for e lovely time.

much much much hearts to J & J for

accompanying me and taking care of me.

esp jess.

you know why.

▲

& to hyna who i had dinner with before i left for zouk.

HOLY CRAP.

i'm deeply sorry i spent e whole dinner time answering calls and replyin texts.

tts all.

i'm lazy to blog about my bintan trip.

gooddae people.

xoxo

ps: to liy's #60 lovely post here

i dont know what else to say except

I LOVE YOU.

2010-02-22T00:22:00.000+08:00

me wants to disown you luhhh.

yup.

2010-02-21T16:43:00.001+08:00

i've got nothing to hide.

do you?

2010-02-18T18:06:00.003+08:00

~~eeeeee.~~

i dont like being upset.
i dont like feeling glum
&
thinking 'life sucks'
cos IT DOESNT and that sounds so childish.

whats happening to me?

i need someone to make me happyyy. please.

maybe just carrot cake for e time being.

2010-02-17T00:10:00.002+08:00

; back

from sunny breezy bintan island.

will blog about it other times

cos currently i am having a bad moment.

i've school tomorrow.

i haven get any work done for e next few days of school.

i've not unpacked.

i am fat.

someone just told me things i dont wanna hear.

i feel lost touch with e world just cos i was away for two days.

i am having one of those depress days.

i am fat.

i am hearing stupid sad songs.

my camera is spoilt cos i kicked sand into it just to take

THE ABOVE PICTURE.

so. goodbye.

2010-02-13T17:08:00.002+08:00

;last post

till e end of e three big days of new year.

▲

my every year resolution is to be a better person, better friend.

this year i've been given alot of chances to be one.

its hard to please everyone and try to make everyone happy

and i'm always bound to make so many stupid mistakes i regret.

but still.

all of you must know,

i love you guys alot, each & everyone of you.

i will work hard to be there when you need me,

i will work hard to cheer you up,

i will work hard to be a good friend.

so please.

forgive me whenever i make silly mistakes.

LASTLY.

i hope everyone have an awesome new year & vday.

▲

i'll chilling off at Bintan Island.

till then.

2010-02-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

OMG.

TOSH ZHANG.

YOUR MY LIFE SAVER.

thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks

x a million!

i wouldnt be able to proceed with my work if it aint for you!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

ps: your sister is an angel too.

2010-02-11T17:07:00.001+08:00

; life's good

when you take everything easy.

my favourite two words

"JUST CHILL"

i hope to stay happy like this for a long long time.

2010-02-10T02:24:00.004+08:00

; hey you

i'm not gonna be able to sleep tonight.

i dont know if i should feel happy knowing what i know now.

i used to wonder what could have happen out of us if i persisted,

i thought i knew the answer to that

but maybe i was wrong?

at least i know now i wasnt just a little girl to you.

i wasnt living in my own dream after all.

it took effort gettin you outta my mind,

i dont wanna go thru tt phase again.

i just wish i knew all of these earlier,

but would things have gone otherwise then?

its all too late to say anythin now anyway.

i would eventually find someone else anyway,

like i said..hopefully someone better then you.

haa.

but thanks for letting me out on all these.

thanks, b.

ps: i just wanna let you know. i never met someone else more perfect to me than you.

it wouldnt be easy to find someone else like you.

2010-02-08T23:54:00.002+08:00

; addicted.

i think i'm addicted to blogging or what?

i just feel like i've to write something everyday.

something.

alright, anwayssss..

tomorrow's my presentation

i'm sick worried.

sick is the right word, yes.

i've this hyper-excitement thingy

which also means i get nervous or excited superbly easy.

which makes me tremble, giddy, no appetite, stomachache

etc etc etc...the list goes on & on...

& so, i actually have to see a psychiatrist to teach me how to relax and stuff

but for e time being, i've pills to help me.

i'm not allowed to take too much though, e doc says i will get addicted to it.

well, anewae.

tml's a big day so PLEASE HELP ME CALM DOWN, PILLS!

▲

; my wedding song

let daddy hear my wedding song in e afternoon

& i thought i share with you guys too.

ps: anyi prob knows it already. hahahaa

i've got my wedding song all prepared,

just missing mr.groom.

i can just imagine the song playing in e ballroom,

e door opens & i step in with mr.groom,

we walk down the aisle hand in hand

i turn to smile at him,

he smiles back at me,

with his hands wrap around mine tightly

....

AWWW.

i so wanna get hitched now.

ok. whatever.

bye loves. xoxo

2010-02-08T03:51:00.002+08:00

; four am.

stage one assessment preparation.

DONE.

yeshhhh ahhhhh!

& I'M DAMN TIRED NOW AHHH!

DD. give you my last 30minutes some other time.

yawns.

i'm tired of waiting..

yawns.

got to go down to school for printing tomorrow.

GOODNIGHT PPL.

2010-02-07T14:14:00.002+08:00

saw this on liy darl's blog.

so true.

all us are slaves for the advertising world,

yet we still want to suffer & go thru it all,

cos it offers more than just a pain in e ass.

2010-02-06T02:00:00.002+08:00

sweet thang ; good night to you.

just gotten my pink nano today.

seriously, this collection pretty much sucks.

i'm just not into e metallic thang.

but my old nano's batt is dying,

& i had to get something quick!

pink's e most outstanding, so..THIS IS IT.

ps: liyyy, there aint any red. haha.

oh, and it has vid camera func, hw weird is tt?

& fm which i think i great.

▲

alrighty, gonna think sweetdreams

work on fyp stage one all wkend.

taaaaa!

2010-02-04T19:30:00.001+08:00

fyp makes me damn irritated,

damn upset,

damn moody.

i dont want to do this anymore.

ITS DAMN FRUSTRATING.

2010-02-03T00:40:00.000+08:00

ITS A COPY EDIT PASTE WORLD AINT IT?

2010-02-02T19:26:00.002+08:00

hello.

some hacker added a picture of a dick in one of my entries a few days ago,

if you managed to catch it,

lucky you!

but i've gotten rid of it already anyway.

for those who think i actually b so gross to put one up,

come on!

even if i wanna put, i rather put boobies

cos i aint interested in any dicks man!

2010-02-01T16:14:00.005+08:00

a 30, good looking, financially stable and an absolute gentleman looking for a sugar baby.

jerk.

if your tt good, i wouldnt b receivin this email.

-.-

▲

anw, mel showed me this vid.

& i thought i do you GUYS & GIRLS a favour.

well actually i only had one person in mind when i put it up.

i know you will totally enjoy this vid.

hahahah.

thank me later.

ps: i saw e better quality video somewhere else,

if you wanna see it...

so search yourself.

hahahaa

2010-01-30T17:59:00.009+08:00

random pictures;

shisha land with my depressed soulmates.

jess 21st last sept.

idk why i got my socks on & beats me e hell, what were we doin!?

is jess feelin jul's face???

it was one hell of a drunk & crazy night,

i could never forget how c..okay..forget it. hahaha.

▲

last party at zouk before i went overseas. (:

such memories.

oh, howw i miss you miss p.

chill out with hun,

i haven meet up with her for god knows how long,

its good to we still had crazy lots of things to talk about.

shes so skinny now,

she drives me crazy,

i'm effing jealous!

playing with liy's new camera,

actually its just an excuse to snap some pictures.

Timbre with Jess & Mel.

my childhood mates.

okayy, i've no idea why e picture turns out so contrasted here

eeps.

old friends are good friends.

hearts;

I SO WANA DO A TATTOO.

on my hand or something.

i'm afraid i might regret though...

i always do.

i'm feeling happy everyday now,

keep it going girlll.

▲

"no one has the right to make me feel bad about myself,

not even me"

2010-01-30T03:46:00.003+08:00

no more super volume lashes;

OH MY GOD.

i spent the whole night searching & editing my blog layout.

234525 hours wasted,

you cant imagine how much time it takes to perfect those shitty lil details.

i love e new layout nevertheless,

simplicity totally works for me.

sidebar is supperrr long though,

i've so much to flood e side with!

okayyy, my eyes are attempting to close w/o my permission,

later lovesss.

ps: i've so many due pictures yet to be updated. ): lazzyy

2010-01-28T17:24:00.002+08:00

i worked so hard in e last 2 years & half in school,

just to pay off for being so slack in e next half year.

can someone give me a wake up call?

bring me back to e days i can work non-stop on my projs,

ideas that keeps flowing in,

determination that keeps me through everything.

ALL'S CRAP NOW.

2010-01-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

i'll try my best to make it work.

promise.

2010-01-27T17:46:00.001+08:00

its nice to see both of you,

poke each others eyes & fight,

breakdown & cry.

suckers.

all of us have to die one day,

why dont you go first?

2010-01-27T00:31:00.001+08:00

deep inside; i think i have already made a choice.

i wont choose a jerk, tts definitely.

2010-01-25T01:05:00.003+08:00

i lost the passion;

now i understand why dey all take long breaks after.

can i just forget about everything,

work as a simple office girl,

lead a simple 9 to 5 life.

~~things works way better when i act like a bitch. -.-~~

2010-01-23T17:20:00.002+08:00

fullstop.

end of what seemed to have broke me down.

end of all this craziness.

end of a mind full of naiveness.

i dont know what got into me,

i was never this weak

to handle all this shallow stuffs.

i let it hurt me,

destroy me,

only to realise what a fool i've been.

come on.

the world has 6, 798,100,000 people.

am i not gonna find another?

xoxo

to liy & xuan for enduring my depressed moments.

to dandy who texted me thru e night

to manville who bbm-ed me thru e night

to dill who accompanied me thru e night

awww.

2010-01-19T22:40:00.002+08:00

starbucks;

took my bike, mac & usual stuffies down to ecp's starbucks

for e hope of new ideas & lesser distraction.

it worked! (:

more quality time in starbucks next timee!

i'm feelin pretty down now,

what a change from just 24hrs ago when i told buddy i feel happyy!

upset equals MORE shopping,

actually..that counts even when i'm happy.

just gotten a wedges & black dress tt feels okayyy~

idk why i gotten them in e first place, aint cheap either!

SIGH.

& my anxiety problem is getting worse.

told daddy.

think i'm gona visit e specialist very soon.

till then. xoxo

2010-01-18T14:20:00.002+08:00

i'm super depressed now.

i've always been taking super good care of my legs,

& you know how i went to NZ and got bitten all over my legs by sandflies?

i've scars all over now, its devastating.

worst thing is

i just checked online & found that the scars can be permanent.

& well..its been almost 2 mths and e scars are still around.

ITS SO AWFUL,

do you know how ugly it is to walk ard with scarred legs?

esp since i'm a girl, a FAIR girl?

i swear i feel so upset whenever i look at my legs now.

i just hope over e mths, e scars can fade completely.

2010-01-16T16:57:00.002+08:00

disco lights;

chilling at manville's & scrabble after.i won, HIS A LOSER! muahahha.

shisha & a hot pot of fragrance tea

on thurs & fri.

i love chilling!

ps: i love e tea set too, wanna take it home.

2010-01-15T16:53:00.004+08:00

today's to do list.

collect clothes from haji.

shop.

get an awesome ear phone.

shop.

meet manville.

& wait for you to give me a surprise someday.

2010-01-12T17:18:00.002+08:00

i'm so in e mood to play with apple's cam.

school wasnt so bad, its nice to see new people, but i miss the old.

& its totally different when you meet e usuals in school and outside.

i feel more excited meeting them in school, esp by chance!

HAHA!

well anw, its the start of school, obviously nth much is going on yet

so i'm still enjoying much! plus theres very little lessons going on.

): i know e stress will come soon though but i will brave thru it!!

i just hope i can get to sleep earlier cos yester was AWFUL.

i slept only aft 5am & now I AM TIRED.

ps: i wanna change my blog layout, smth more workable.

wait till i've some time to spare.

XOXO

2010-01-08T17:43:00.002+08:00

i have not worn a 'real' jeans for a long time,

real meaning skinny tight fitting jeans.

why? cos they dont fit well anymore

ever since i bloommmmm.

but now my legs are a disgrace to me,

with injuries all over, i have to cover them up!

thank god with pulling stretching whatever,

my shiny zara jeans still fit quite well.

oh myyyyy. its really time to diet.

2010-01-06T00:23:00.002+08:00

rant*

why do i have such a flat pancake nose?

if i can, e first thing i wana go under the knife for is my nose!

i want a nice perfect nose i can see when i look down to my feets.

& i'm blogging now cos i'm doin some face stuff and i need smth to waste my time off.

oh, i'll be meeting ppl i feel like i havent meet for a longggg time.

miss P.

miss Y.

miss S.

oohhhh, i miss you guys.

xoxo.

hope tml will b allll good.

2010-01-04T21:03:00.002+08:00

crazy load of pictures i finally find time to blog.
three weeks trip to South Island of New Zealand
Wellington . Picton . Nelson . GreymouthFranz Josef Glacier . Queenstown . Milford soundWanaka . Tekapo . Christchurch
then to Aussie
Camberra . Sydney
New Z is wonderful, i love it there, miss the place& i wana go back sometime.
Its totally the best place to chill.
Went Canberra for eldest sis's convocation& yes, shes officially back home after 4 years over there.(:
Sydney was okay, seemed to change alot since e last time i was thr?
alright, i'm lazy to talk all about e trip so justcheck out the pictures,ENJOY!
Airport & in e plane with a cute air steward.

Wellington. Small cute town & freezing weather.

Took e cruise over to Picton.

Stayed at Smith Farm.went trekking, played with dolly - thats what daddy calls e goat& the cute sheepies.

Nelson - The Chart Housemy favourite stay, beautiful house with a garden.
think, night bbq in the cold weather.memorable.

Franz Josef Glazier Glazier equals ice mountain, literally.

Queenstown.I LOVE THIS PLACE MUCH.
Its really the most beautiful place ever.

I took the Shotover Jet,it was so funnnnn!i wana take it again & again & again!

Milford Sound.i was breakfast, lunch & dinner to sandflies.their bites can last for months & i have marks all over my feets now! arrgghhhhh.

Wanaka.

Lake Tekapo.

Christchurch.

Canberra.sis graduation! (:

daddy's girls.

Sydney.

& back to singapore.
HOME x SWEET x HOME
later guys. xoxo